urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cpstaged cpstaged cpstaged 2006-06-15T22:23:04Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cpstaged:1157 2006-06-15T22:23:04Z 2006-06-15T22:23:04Z here comes the sun... beatles I am living in New York next year. That is almost as surreal as what graduation felt like.<br />I sat in my cap and gown and walked up and got my empty diploma case.. and saw the faces of people I've never seen before.<br />I felt SO insignificant. <br />Then my mom...bitched out Miller Hosey.<br />FABULOUS.<br />Leave it to my mom.. to hate me... but still defend me..<br />It makes me hate her less.<br /><br />This year was like... the year that defined me. I feel like the people that dislike me.. are disliked by so many that the moments spent worrying about it seem so stupid. I worried too much about people that meant nothing.. and what drives me absalutely insane.. is that I still care.<br />Why do I still care?<br />I wish I had been closer to a few people.. now we won't get that chance.<br />For those I have hurt... I'm sorry.<br />Those who have touched my life, thank you.<br />For those who have taken me in when I needed a place to stay, you made me feel worth it.<br />And to those that drive me so insane...that I hate.. but care so deeply about at the same time... You are what keeps me going.<br /><br />I have realized that no matter how hard I try I will never please everyone.<br />No matter how much make up I put on... I will never look like cameron diaz.<br />no matter how many diets I try... I will never look like cameron diaz.<br />and that's ok.<br /><br />I have realized that however insecure I feel... there are people who suffer more then me.. there are people who can't let themselves out.. and all of my faults.... my idiosyncrasies.. I am who I am...<br /><br />On a brighter note... did any of you catch Conan O'Brien last night?<br />Regina Spektor.. more importantly<br />Morgan Pressel.<br />So, I went to elementary school with Morgan.<br />Banyan Creek Elementary.<br />3 years.. birthday parties, playdates, spice girl concerts, you name it.. we did it.<br />Now she's professional...<br />I am SO happy for her.. she won 2nd in the wpga. we took golf lessons together.<br />and I skimmed through the channels and she was on Conan.<br />Incredible.<br />She got me my first Tamogotchi.<br />I got her a hoola skirt and bra.<br />And now I saw her on late night tv.<br />weird.<br /><br />Yea. SO I graduated. I still feel like a high school student.<br /><br />I liked all of the speeches... I thought that it was a great ceremony.. and I can;t really remember my walk up there... It kind of goes from... standing in my seat to hugging Kelly Dowd.<br />Whatever.<br />2006. Never a better year.. <br />except 2010. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cpstaged:985 2006-06-14T20:12:55Z 2006-06-14T20:12:55Z So. I'm graduating in about....2 hours.<br />How did the time go by so fast?<br />I remember what I wore the first day of high school. <br />I remember meeting Hanna and going to Dreyfoos.<br />I remember my first day at Council Rock.<br />How can I be leaving?<br />It's kind of scary. Part of me is so excited... the other part is terrified...and the other part still doesn;t accept that I'm graduating.<br />Time goes by too fast. <br />This year was probably the best and worst in many ways.<br />In my relationshoip with my mom... it was horrible. But I made so many friends who helped me learn a lot. <br />I can't imagine my life without Don. I can't imagine my life without Sam.... I just.. don't know what to do. How am I going to get through this summer... and leave in the fall?<br />August 28..<br />2 months...2 weeks.<br />I feel like I'm going to wake up tomorrow and be like.. ok.. time for 1st period.. I don't know.<br />So.... goodbye.<br />I can't figure out if I'm going to be all emotional... or not show anything... personally.. I'm not looking foward ti this long,... LONG ceremony..<br />ok.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cpstaged:329 2006-06-07T15:42:23Z 2006-06-07T15:42:23Z journal entry #1.<br /><br />note to self. NO DINER TIME AFTER MIDNIGHT!<br /><br />Exhausted.