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[Jun. 15th, 2006|06:02 pm] |
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I am living in New York next year. That is almost as surreal as what graduation felt like.
I sat in my cap and gown and walked up and got my empty diploma case.. and saw the faces of people I've never seen before.
I felt SO insignificant.
Then my mom...bitched out Miller Hosey.
FABULOUS.
Leave it to my mom.. to hate me... but still defend me..
It makes me hate her less.
This year was like... the year that defined me. I feel like the people that dislike me.. are disliked by so many that the moments spent worrying about it seem so stupid. I worried too much about people that meant nothing.. and what drives me absalutely insane.. is that I still care.
Why do I still care?
I wish I had been closer to a few people.. now we won't get that chance.
For those I have hurt... I'm sorry.
Those who have touched my life, thank you.
For those who have taken me in when I needed a place to stay, you made me feel worth it.
And to those that drive me so insane...that I hate.. but care so deeply about at the same time... You are what keeps me going.
I have realized that no matter how hard I try I will never please everyone.
No matter how much make up I put on... I will never look like cameron diaz.
no matter how many diets I try... I will never look like cameron diaz.
and that's ok.
I have realized that however insecure I feel... there are people who suffer more then me.. there are people who can't let themselves out.. and all of my faults.... my idiosyncrasies.. I am who I am...
On a brighter note... did any of you catch Conan O'Brien last night?
Regina Spektor.. more importantly
Morgan Pressel.
So, I went to elementary school with Morgan.
Banyan Creek Elementary.
3 years.. birthday parties, playdates, spice girl concerts, you name it.. we did it.
Now she's professional...
I am SO happy for her.. she won 2nd in the wpga. we took golf lessons together.
and I skimmed through the channels and she was on Conan.
Incredible.
She got me my first Tamogotchi.
I got her a hoola skirt and bra.
And now I saw her on late night tv.
weird.
Yea. SO I graduated. I still feel like a high school student.
I liked all of the speeches... I thought that it was a great ceremony.. and I can;t really remember my walk up there... It kind of goes from... standing in my seat to hugging Kelly Dowd.
Whatever.
2006. Never a better year..
except 2010. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2006|04:04 pm] |
So. I'm graduating in about....2 hours.
How did the time go by so fast?
I remember what I wore the first day of high school.
I remember meeting Hanna and going to Dreyfoos.
I remember my first day at Council Rock.
How can I be leaving?
It's kind of scary. Part of me is so excited... the other part is terrified...and the other part still doesn;t accept that I'm graduating.
Time goes by too fast.
This year was probably the best and worst in many ways.
In my relationshoip with my mom... it was horrible. But I made so many friends who helped me learn a lot.
I can't imagine my life without Don. I can't imagine my life without Sam.... I just.. don't know what to do. How am I going to get through this summer... and leave in the fall?
August 28..
2 months...2 weeks.
I feel like I'm going to wake up tomorrow and be like.. ok.. time for 1st period.. I don't know.
So.... goodbye.
I can't figure out if I'm going to be all emotional... or not show anything... personally.. I'm not looking foward ti this long,... LONG ceremony..
ok.. |
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[Jun. 7th, 2006|11:41 am] |
journal entry #1.
note to self. NO DINER TIME AFTER MIDNIGHT!
Exhausted. |
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